Since school started I have been very excited to be finishing my Criminal Justice degree. I did not expect to be so stressed out over it all though. It doesn't help that I am also in 2 plays that I wasn't planning on being apart of, just something fun to do to, something to get me more involved to help me make friends so that it wasn't all strictly school for me. So I am stressed about school, mainly math, and having gotten myself into 2 plays that coincide with each other, but that isn't all that I am stressed about; My brother being in the Marines and my son being as he is and both so far away, along with financial issues and a few other things(like gaining weight back that I had lost, I am a bit upset about that).
Tonight I broke down at rehearsal, it wasn't just that I was frustrated with my lines that I did know but got stage fright, "Test Anxiety" is another way of putting it, but that all this stress has been building and I hit breaking point. Hopefully now that I have it all out and I am writing about it this will take away some of the stress. Writing about it always seems to help more. And praying about it, which I do a lot of that. I don't feel like I am taking on more than I can handle and I love that I am doing things I want to do but I just need to get a better handle on how to schedule things and work on certain things and feelings.
Thank you to my cast members for being so understanding and helpful. I greatly appreciate it and I know some of you have been and are still in the same place I am right now with school, work, kids, plays, and other life responsibilities. We are a family and I love that we can depend on each other and help and support each other when we need it.
I am feeling a lot better, except for this headache, but no worries it will go away with sleep and relaxation. Night everyone, see you tomorrow!!
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